The Anxiety

It's just after 11pm, I'm wrapping a successful day and that's been part of a fairly successful week.

I'm working on a few projects, many of which are not visible to readers like you, and they are progressing well. I know this. That they are not done is bothering me, but that's just me being me.

Today, I had an unproductive daytime, I could feel I was anxious this morning - I'm close to launching my long overdue campaign for financial sustainability of my journalism, a few personal projects are going well, and everything is coming together.

That's the thing that is making me anxious. So many times in my life, just when it looked like all my hard work was finally going to see me achieve the goals I'm working for, something I cannot control destroys it.

Today, for about four hours, I was so anxious, I couldn't get anything done. Even deciding if I will post this makes me anxious.

It's at times like this, I remember that successful entrepreneurs of my variety - the start with nothing and forge a new business path that no one has previously - are the results of failures, doubts, and a drive to keep moving forward despite all the obstacles and just how impossible success seems at times.

I handle stress relatively okay, it's anxiety that gets to me.

At least writing this post was helpful.